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May 10, 2000
Controlled Spam.

I seem to be left with some sort of resentment, that happens to be resting on my behalf. So what else is new? I don't really care about all the whores, although I did see one set of fine tits that looked like they were drawn with nice markers. It was a Mardi Gras type of thing, and I have been wearing beads around on occasion, to look healthier. At one party I kept buying this lame ass beer from a half-naked chick in an elevated beer dispensing booth. For some reason I turn into a little kid in the face of beauty.

Such could be the case with one particular lady who, for apparently no defineable reason, I was left fond of after several brief encounters. She just seemed like she was really cool I guess, but for some reason her height always made me feel that she was out of my league. Those are not actually my sentiments though; somebody else said that. I tend to apply more to the older ladies, but I don't know from where they emanate and, for whatever reason, reason they always go off somewhere without me.

When at first I asked around, people thought she didn't have a boyfriend. I was into her nice wardrobe and I thought she was a producer, but in reality she was an actress. I sent her a love letter, and later a letter from Seattle telling her I had schizophrenia. When I felt better I got around to asking her out, via a call from a magazine office. She seemed flattered but was of course involved. When will such entrapment end, I wonder. Probably not in the course of my life; they always have someone else around, whether it be a fuck friend or what have you, I guess someone with a car.

Being a writer for Spike Jonze Inc. could make me an interesting date, but it seems I cannot get the line on that work, so the women just don't know. I never get to date, so sometimes when I go out alone to drink it seems like I'm on a date. Am I on a date with myself? I don't know. This girl, the involved actress, she was working in the office. Before that I would always look at her, very pretty and tall. Whatever, these are just memories of yet another vain attempt at intimacy, am I not allowed? So I would call there all the time and she would answer. When I didn't want to talk to her anymore I still called, but she didn't seem phased by my voice. What am I talking about?

Sometime before I spent Labor Day weekend in a hotel, at the time she was working at the office. Then I ran into her when I was making a pay phone call and she was getting gas, and she seemed excitable. Then I ran into her in front of the film company. She seems to often make weird faces at me, though it is apparent she likes me somewhat. So I walked right by her there. I didn't have any money or anything really, and sometimes when the writing's not going too good I have a breach in confidence. Right there I was accused by a friend of blowing it. These are all things I'm considering. Sometimes I have a lot of trouble talking to women I don't know and, at some level, I am very shy often as well. Being homeless doesn't help. Sometimes these women just intimidate me with their apartments and designer wardrobes. So be it.

I won't write much more about the rest, since this is suppose to be philosophical, not based on my desires. But I did get a ride home from her recently, and she hugged me. I think the hug would of felt better if there wasn't so much momentum built up behind it. Also I ran into another lovely LA lady, Anna Waronker, formerly of That Dog. I think I mentioned here previously, perhaps quite recently. She was poised up by the DJ booth in a dance club, looking over the crowd. I couldn't believe it was actually her; being couped up in Chicago without the money to leave for so long leaves one forgetting what reality is, or it did to me. So I got to meet Anna Waronker, one of my favorite and blonde singers. She knew who I was as well. I had to wait in line outside of the club, as my friends got in earlier, which sucked but the way I've been treating bars I guess that maybe I didn't deserve to go in. Good things come to those who wait, and as proof I did get to meet Anna and still retain ideals. She is married, anyway. So, send any of your search and destroys or marital consequences to my address, thanks for writing.

Sincerely,

Steve H. Sleave

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Tom Schmidt
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